Laser hair removal January 21, 2012

So I leaped and decided to pursue laser hair removal! Today was my consult and I was excited and nervous all at the same time!!

While researching it I found many people recommending Ideal Image and they also offered a free consult.

I will be posting about my experience soon… And you should also expect some in depth catch-up on my life in the coming weeks.

I know I’ve said this before… And I’ll say it again I’m sure… Sorry to be so distant and hopefully soon I’ll be able to find the time in my day and the want to write more often!

Till then –

  

Mood… November 23, 2011

Do you ever feel like you have days where you would essentially be tickled pink just to annoy someone?? I know its hormones… And that I haven’t felt that great over the past couple of days.. but I’m perfectly content pissing my husband off!

I’m not really talking about picking a fight… Just the little things… Teasing a little too far… Snapping just right… Same ole same ole.

Anywho… Just wanted to throw that out there… This girl is apparently on a war path so watch out!

Journal Topic #1 November 20, 2011

What is your favorite time of year?

This is an easy one… The fall. I love the cool and clean air, the changing colors, the need for hoodies..

When the weather starts changing I immediately start feeling nostalgic… Something that I feel is silly every year… How can I love this time of year and still be a little sad?

I was a bad kid when I was younger… In high school I snuck out quite a bit… And it always seemed to be around this time of year when I did. It would get dark… I would finish chores and homework then I would hurry to bed and be gone almost immediately. While waiting for my friends to come and pick me up I would stare up at the stars. It’s cold, and I can see my breath and the moon is beyond bright.

Later on I found a true love for Halloween!… I even worked for a haunted trail for a while and LOVED it!

I got married in October… Thanksgiving is in November… My bday is in November… Then Christmas in December… (I mention Dec since our weather is basically still fall weather then).

Seems to me there is no reason to really be intimidated by the fall.

Of course, I guess if I look at it on the other end… The not being able to get pregnant end… Makes this time of year harder. You think of school starting, and family functions, and happy fall days with kiddos.

We just aren’t there yet. Maybe one day.

Till then!

And again… It’s been a while.. November 18, 2011

I feel like life tends to combine with school and work and I just get sucked into such a boring life that I just… do not write!

I am really wanting to become more consistent though… So I will be pulling out my old psychology journal and I’ll try writing on those topics… Build a habit and try to fill in with my life some! Hopefully by expressing my thoughts and concerns with a specific topic I can put myself into this blog!

That being said… Coming soon.. the new and improved Jackie!

How? February 25, 2011

It’s pretty hard to watch those that you love going into surgery. I mean, I know that its relatively safe, and in many cases its a great thing. However, to watch my husband being prepped for surgery, with my medical knowledge, knowing what happens each and every day… well, its hard.

How do you put all of the complications out of your mind long enough to be supportive? How do you have the difficult discussions all while knowing that this is supposed to be a simple and fast procedure? How do you learn to not worry about how everything is going to turn out and to def not dwell on the what-its?

Ok, I suppose I should go and try to be that supportive wife… fingers crossed and prayers going up.

… February 23, 2011

I colored my hair again this past weekend. I went back dark, “espresso brown” bc I’m a boxed color kind of gal! I told the husband that I was coloring it to fit my mood…

He quickly replied with, “oh, so you’re all dark and twisty again?”

LOL, not only had I never heard of this till my sister reminded me it was on Greys Anatomy but since when am I worthy of the phrase “dark and twisty”???!

I’m not a mean person… granted certain meds make me go a little crazy. But I’m not one of those you have to wonder wth got into! Not always anyways!

As promised… February 22, 2011

I am trying to be around more.

I was sitting at work today and kept looking outside… it was absolutely beautiful. 75, sunny, clear… it smelled like spring! It’s def getting there slowly but surely!

This evening I would like to talk about my job. Without going into specifics or much detail I would like to say that this job is great and I do love my patients however try as I may – some of the practice “practices” make no sense to me. I think I’m going to start looking at going back to school, I really would like to go back for nursing. My dreams throughout the years have changed : first I wanted to be a vet. Then it was the lawyer dream! Then there was therapist.. then finally neonatal nursing. I just can’t help but think that I would love to do nursing… but that perhaps I’d be better in the ER.

I have that type A personality which has to be a leader… which may be why I’m running into conflict at the drs office. That and I think there are just too many type A personalities there.

Alllll that being said, on the way home today teaching popped into my head. I have always loved history, and I think I have a knack for teaching others… I would love love love to teach a history class. I think I just might look into some classes geared towards that… but who knows how far I’ll actually take that.

Teachers don’t get paid enough, and quite honestly the way kids are raised these days… I’d flip! Haha

Who knows, lots of thought are running through my head… I’m just praying that one day I find my place because I just do not feel like where I’m at now is it!

….~till then

Provera… February 20, 2011

A love/hate relationship?!?! This medication makes me love it because it helps me to know that every month I WILL have a period (which is pretty essential when you are trying to have a baby! LOL) however this medication makes me absolutely MEAN! I turn into the monster hiding out behind the mask of a try-to-be-nice health care professional!!! HAHA, not to mention the amount of food this med makes me want to consume is INSANE. I am supposed to be low-carbing it since I’m on Metformin, but I absolutely cannot stay away from foods… and of course it is all the pastas, breads, and SWEETS that I’m craving.

I’ve NEVER been a huge sweets fan. I don’t care for sweets and I would prefer fries (greasy foods) over cake/cookies any day… however when I’m on this med… this devil med.. I want nothing but little Debbie cakes and Golden Corrals freakin Chocolate pie… you know, the one with whip cream on top?? Yep, that’s the one… I even went as far as asking how much an entire pie was the past time I was on Provera… and I might have bought it.. and ate all but 2 pieces…

LOL, or the Pecan pie the cycle before that… yep.. you get the point.

How far do you go when screwing with mother nature? February 19, 2011

Odd question huh? I know, really I do! When I first started thinking about me needing to go to the Dr for fertility reasons I spun a nice thick web of great reasons not to. This included the obvious denial of there being a problem. I had convinced myself that I was happy not having a period every month (I mean DUHHH!) I had also convinced myself that when God thought I was ready he would let me have a baby…

Then one day, literally out of nowhere someone told me this joke: A man is in an area that is flooding and the rescuers were coming around trying to evacuate. He told them that they should go get those who are less fortunate – his God would keep him safe. As time goes on and the water rises he is forced onto the roof of his house. A helicopter comes and again he tells them to save those who are less fortunate – his God would keep him safe. Well, the water continues to rise and the man drowns. When he gets to those pearly gates he demands, “God, why didn’t you keep me safe?” To which God answers, “I sent many people to help you, but it was your stubbornness that brought this upon you.”

So here I am, asking God for his help. I want a baby and hopefully all this trouble is his way of bringing me back to him. I have to seek help, the help he is providing.

Sorry y’all, I don’t mean to go all religious, and it’s not somewhere I normally go… it just felt right today.

~Till then…

How in the world?? February 19, 2011

Fertility treatments are so expensive! How do you ever afford a baby after paying to have one? Haha…

What were your limits financially? How did you afford it? What sacrifices did you make?